Why can't I just be happy? I forget that nobody walks on water, I keep on drowning. Walk out the front door into her arms again. You know you'll never love anyone, at least not this way, and now that she's gone, there's a hell of a change. Your heart is heavy, your words are slurred, your knees are shaking and your balance is lost. The only way to shake this feeling off is to have no feeling at all.
You're still sitting on your bed and I'm still watching you there. Biting your fingernails. I figure it's nothing and it's just a bad habit, but at the same time i'm scared as hell thinking about it.
You track mud into the bed that you're in now, and you say you're comfortable but I know you can't sleep. Nothing makes sense, nothing makes you happier than being sad 7 days a week.
I'm chewing on my fingernails now so i can remember you more clearly. Asleep in my head, staring at the sky through my ceiling. I start to see your face etched into the clouds, as every last fingernail falls from my mouth. I can start to feel your hands in my hair again.
Now it's been months since that time and I guess I'm alright but still nothing haunts me more than how I felt all those nights. Forgive and forget. Our ghosts are holding hands. Alone and dead I sink. Good luck with everything. You drown in blood and spit.
Atmospheric black metal band Sadness and experimental screamo band To Be Gentle channel intense emotions on this split single. Bandcamp New & Notable Sep 28, 2021